The rest of my life. It’s such an odd phrase. But having turned 60 years old, I have to really start considering that what time I have left is limited. My dad died at 65, my mom at 72; both had cancer. Three of my 4 grandparents had cancer. One died at 53 two at 69, and one at 85. Just looking at the math, I may not have a whole lot of time left. So how do I use it? Retirement didn’t stick. I was bored silly. I was so bored, that one month, I wrote a novel. 60,000 words in a month. And I was still bored. Every morning I would do all the puzzles that the New York Times had to offer then I would write all day. It still didn’t give me the mental stimulation that I needed.
Since going back to teaching full time I have found the stimulation that I was looking for. Last year, however, was not ideal. I was teaching students who had failed algebra up to five times. They were not exactly inspired to learn. My ego told me I could make a difference in their lives and for a very few I was successful. But it was frustrating beyond words to meet such resistance from students who didn’t feel they could improve their lives. When the opportunity came to return to teaching middle school I jumped at it. I am a middle school teacher. Have been given the chance to return to Pierre Moran Middle School, well that was just icing on the cake.
I never stopped learning new things. That’s one of the things I can be proud of in my life. In trying to develop a yearlong escape room, more or less. I’ve found tools that have helped me immensely in being productive: ChatGPT and Canva. If I had had these tools while I was working on Solution Squad, my life would have been so much easier. The ability to create learning materials based on my comic stories has been made incredibly easier. I can now produce posters worksheets buttons everything at the touch of a button using Canva. ChatGPT helps me to align my work with Indiana math standards which have changed in the past two years. Who knows why they keep changing things the way they do? But they do and I just have to play along.
One of the mistakes I made when working on Solution Squad was thinking that all math teachers had the same ability that I do to be able to find math in every single instance of any subject. It was such a niche project that the crossover between math teachers and comic book lovers was too small to make it financially viable. So, I’m not trying to do that anymore. The work that I’m doing now is purely for my benefit. People may admire my creativity but I’m not doing it for the masses or to make money. I’m doing it for me. I want to see if I can be the quality teacher that I was 10 years ago.
My wife often says that I have to have a project. I always have to have something long term that I’m working on to keep myself occupied. Now that I have the tools available to me that I wish I’d always had, I’m going to make the class the best I possibly can. I’m going to use graphic novels, comic books, and popular culture and I’m going to make a math class that kids will remember.
The big question is, how long can I keep this up? If I enjoy it? Indefinitely. In seven years, I can collect Social Security at my full retirement age I don’t feel like my health will stop me but possibly my hearing will be the issue. I already have trouble hearing people in conversation and have to read lips in addition to having hearing aids, so I guess I’ll let that determine when I’m done. But I would honestly enjoy teaching for the rest of my life if the kids match my creative energy like the middle school kids in my past did.
We’ll see.
